Dark chocolate peppermint or orange?

Chill session with the Love tonight at Coffer Bean @ HollandV. Contemplation over a new battery pack, discussions over fish tanks and last but not least, marriage.

It definitely made me realize that guys are not as dumb or ignorant as we girls think. They are just damn good at feigning ignorance. Haha! All these while when you think that they didn't realize when you threw tantrums or showed 'attitude', they actually do. It's just that they don't say it, but they are very aware of it.

So many things to consider, so many things to do. Walking on unchartered grounds. Wondering what the outcome will be like. The fears, the anxieties, the uncertainties. I was told that sometimes I tend to focus on the negative too much. Maybe I do.

But that's the beauty of it isn't it? When two individuals of different personalities come together, they each have their own strengths and weaknesses. The best part is they complement each other, putting together a very beautiful, ideal picture after that.

[On the go]

A story of a boy and girl

This is a story of a boy and a girl..

What seems like two individuals from worlds apart..Nevertheless, they managed to overcome the trials and tribulations together.

The boy has a very strong interest in dance. However, the girl feels like she's a hindrance to his interest, his lifestyle. And prolly, he deserves someone better who can enjoy it with him.

It is such a dilemma that the girl is in. As much as she wants the boy to do something that he's passionate about, giving him the support, but somehow it just doesn't seem to match.

The girl just wishes that there's something that she can do. Well maybe, she's not the right one.

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Numb lips and tongue

Gone are two of my wisdom teeth..it was such a quick procedure. But it was a lil scary to be hearing the sound of the drill yet I can't see a single thing. The dentist definitely injected a lot of anesthetic into me, considering that lips are still feeling numb even up till now. But the nurses were so nice. :) It feels good to be receiving such good service an treatment from them.

And they did not tell me that my bottom tooth was above the nerve too. And there was the possibility of nerve injury. Thanks eh.

4 types of meds given, am supposed to finish all of it. Eeek~

Headed to Tong Seng for dinner as Sayang was hungry. Ordered fish porridge thinking that it was really porridge, but I was fooled. It was rice in soup. I couldn't eat at all with the gauze in my mouth. It was such a horrible feeling. I lost my appetite after that.

I still have two more on the right. haish~ do I really need to go through it all over again?!?!

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Bid farewell to my wisdom

I have got to bid farewell to two of my wisdom teeth any moment now. Oh the emotions that are running within me, I so cannot explain. Anxious, nervous, fear. I hope I don't bleed to death. I'm alone now, it should be ok rite? I should be able to manage this on my own. Soft diet after this. Now that I think about it, I wonder if I had gone for all 4 extractions instead. Oh well, it's too late now...

So long my friends.....

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Comfort Zone

Sometimes, the ones whom we love have totally different life principles from us. Some are negotiable, some can e compromised, some can be embraced, while there are others that just cannot be tolerated or to be in comfort with. Then, what do u do? And what if religious values and teachings are in contradiction to the their life principles? You know that you're not comfortable with it but bringing up the concerns or talking abt it will only result in arguments and unhappiness for both parties. However, not bringing it up will cause unhappiness and discomfort to you. Dilemma isn't it?

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Of Weddings and Engagements

Yes, another wedding and another engagement that I had to attend this week. Two weeks back2back and they are both pple whom I've known personally. Taking that big step in life is no joke. You must be very sure and certain of your decision and must be prepared in all possible aspects.

Undeniably, money is always the issue. You need to have enough money in order to do the wedding. I overheard mum telling dad that the 'market' rate now is $7k minimum, and that the groom-to-be should at least have $10k in hand. That sounds like a lot of money doesn't it? sheeesh~

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25prawns in 4hrs

Spent the day with the Love. Early lunch followed by Prawning. It's been a while since we last prawned for a sufficient period of time without having the need to rush. Much loved!!

Hope everybody out there had a good Saturday too!

The only downside of this blogging app is that it doesn't have a function tt can upload photos as well. Sucky much.

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Of waffles and dealing

Met up with Ms S in town. The plan to watch Eat,Pray,Love failed miserably considering that the timing were all pretty off. And there was no way I could make it in time to Vivo. So, decided to have waffles at Gelare instead. Yes, it was my first time. And I LOVE it ok..it was so fantastic!! yummy yummy. monopoly dealed after that.

It was a good evening spent. Got the opportunity to know her better and to be sharing grievances with. Time well spent indeed.

Prawning next? 

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New world

It's been a while hasn't it. Purchased my iPhone4 after much persuasion and convincing by Sayang.haha! IPhone couple now, and it sure feels good to have everything at my fingertips. I'm even writing this entry on my iPhone. Yes, believe it or not.

Two weddings today. Unknowingly, the first was my pri sch mate. Sheesh~ the second wedding for the day was my cuzzin's wedding. And yes, he's a guy, my age, and married. It feels a bit off Coz both weddings tt I attended today were pple whom I saw them when we were all very much younger n now they've moved on to another stage in their life. It makes me wonder, when will my turn come then? Relatives keep asking "so when's your turn?" simple reply from me will always be, tmr or next week. I think my parents know my time's coming. Sheesh~

Perhaps..

It feels like an emo, much thinking night tonight.

The past few days of 'spending time' with you has always been with others. There's hardly a time when we can sit down and spend time together properly and have nice chats together. Conversations at night have became a 3minutes phonecall and nothing more.

And tonight, somehow, I just feel that words have been reduced. I felt that perhaps, I'm not good enough for you. That perhaps, sometimes, I'm just hoping for too much. Or that perhaps, sometimes, I'm unable to deliver and giving you the care that you probably need.

Life is a dilemma

Why must there be so much drama in life? Maybe producers of future soap dramas should interview people on the street instead for the storyline of their new production.

I've always thought that the middle child in the family will end up having to play mediator amongst different people. But how come, me, the youngest, end up in doing so? There's the parents, the first sister, the second sister and my own, self interest.

And when i'm still stuck in the dilemma, another 'drama' / 'dilemma' occurs. Do I look that nice to everybody? I just don't want to talk to anybody with regards to that issue now. Now, I know what my mum meant when she said "When people want to borrow big sum of money from you, or just want to borrow money from you, don't relent."

I feel so torn in between.

Big money, big money

Money matters are always ever so sensitive. I find myself in the middle of many people, many things. It's such a sensitive topic.

Often, some will approach me and ask if they could borrow money from me. To some, I refused to budge, to some I relented. However, what happens when it's a family member? I find myself ever so selective on who I give in too. Then again, past experiences of not paying back in time makes me bitter.

And I find it harder when the relative tells me, "Please don't let your mum know or any of my family members know ok?"

Why did I do Social Work?

A group of SW1101E students came to the hospital for their required agency visit for the module. This time round, it was different compared to the previous rounds as the students came in the morning, and not only that, there were more of them who were thinking of doing Social Work as a major.

I brought one student along with me for my intake interview and it made me to think again, why did I do social work. While I was sharing with her the things that we do in the hospital, the challenges faced as a medical social worker, I realised that I do find satisfaction in the job, but somehow I just did not realise it. She asked me, what made me to choose Social Work. And I just told her, if you want to help people, if you like to work and interact people, then I guess you’d want to do the job. Somehow, it’s a calling. And she asked if my parents were supportive in my decision to do Social Work. Just like any other parents, they were initially not very supportive, but over time, they began to accept it.

I wanted to help those in need. I wanted to make a difference in their lives. I wanted to do things that will be able to form smiles on their faces, which in turn makes me happy.

And have I achieved at least one of the above so far?

Yes.

My life for the past one week or so....
First of all, Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends!! :) Maaf zahir batin ye, makan dan minum yang tak sempat dibayar balik, harap halalkan k? :)

Raya this year was a little bit different. Why you may ask. Well, there are so many pple around me who are getting married in the next two months!!! Two of my guy cousins who are both my age are getting married in Oct, a female cousin who's a year older is getting married in Nov, my brother-in-law's sister is getting engaged in Nov. My oh my. And, although relatives have been asking me the same ol' question every year, and i give them the same ol' answer everytime, this time round, the frequency of the questions seem to be more. SHeesh~ And the question is: When is your turn? And my mum has blatantly and comfortably told my auntie that if God-willing, she'll want to marry me off next year. Well done Mummy! But I guess these issues are the central issues in our lives when you've reached a particular age or stage in life.

Sayang, thankiew very much for sharing what you've been thinking about with me. I truly appreciate it and I'm sure that it takes a lot of courage from you to share it with me, fearing what my response or reaction will be. And I've never doubt your love for me, don't worry. I love you very much and will always do. And I'm eager to start the new phase / journey in our lives together. You've never failed to amaze and impress me time and time again. And you'll be the most respected and commendable boyfriend ever. *muacks*

It was his birthday yesterday. But he wanted me to go down to Lot1 as he shared that he had a surprise for me. And the whole day I couldn't stop thinking on what the surprise could be.

Could it be a party? Could it be something that he bought for me i.e iPhone? Could it be a ring?

I tell you, I couldn't focus at work at all. And so, I made my way down to Lot1 to meet him and I was getting excited as the clock ticked by.

We met. We said hello. He gave me a small tub of Strawberry Meiji Yoghurt. And in my head I was thinking, "Is this the surprise that he was talking about? How disappointing." But he didn't say anything. But well, the yoghurt was really delicious niwae. And so we walked and walked and he said.
Akhim: I saw this brochure about mooncakes and watnots and as I was looking through, they were selling Halal snow skin mooncakes. And I was thinking of buying them for you and surprise you.
Me: Really?!?!?!?!
Akhim: Ya, but the thing is I left the brochure in camp. Haha~

Nonetheless, we still managed to find the shop. It was The Royals. And yes, the Love bought for me the snow skin mooncakes that I've been craving for. Yummylicious~ Thankiew Sayang!!!

Happy Birthday Cowey Love

19 August 2010
A very special day indeed. It is the birthday of a very important soul, someone who is very dear to me. His existence has impacted my life a great deal.

To Akhim Sayang,

A very happy birthday to you. Hope that you've had a good 23years of fun and excitement, with many, many nuggets of wisdom that you can carry through with you for the rest of your life. And may the many years to come bring greater joy and more wonderful life experiences for you. You'll soon be embarking on a new stage of your life, and I'll be here to walk through it with you.

Your laughter and positive attitude has always been one that never fail to cheer me up in times of sorrow. You've been a wonderful partner, lover and most importantly, you've been a great friend to me. Your presence in my life is very much appreciated and I thank Allah for the fate that brought us together, and giving us the opportunity to be with one another.

Having said all that, let's not forget how whacky a person you are. Always thinking you're 17years old (well, now you're 18 ok?). Always going "heeheehee~" with that cheeky smile on your face when you have got nothing to say and feeling guilty. Well, don't get me started on all the funny things that you do. Then again, all these are what makes you, you. ("v")

Happy Birthday Akhim Sayang~

How do I say this without offending anybody. Hmm~ Lemme think about it.........

I feel that one should try to do things, or want something that is within their means.

There's this particular fear in me that is indescribable, unexplainable.

Dear Anorexic, please get well soon ok? :) I know that you're a strong girl, and I know you'll get through this. :) I'll keep you in my prayers and don't worry too much about not being able to fast. Your health is far more important than anything else. The Lil Misses will come and throw bananas at you soon k? Till then, promise us that you'll take care of yourself. Hwiting~ *muacks*

It's the month of Ramadhan once again. The serenity that this month brings is simply fantastic, calming. :)

Lately, I feel that I'm having insecurities. A certain part of me feels very low in esteem. Like I'm not slim enough for you, like I'm not pretty enough for you, like I'm just not 'whatever' enough for you. Maybe, I'm really am not. Will you still love me? Will you still love me all the same?

It was a lot of effort convincing Mummy to go out to City Hall to watch the fireworks yesterday. Nevertheless, I managed to, and she seemed to be enjoying herself, being able to watch the jetplane vroom past above her head, an experience that she does not get if she were to watch the parade from  home. I think to a certain extent, Mummy has a lil boy aspect in her, like how she loves to watch bike race on TV and how she used to nejoy watching wrestling. Anyhow, I still love her the same. :)

Anorexic, Schizo and Sleeping Disorder were there too, somewhere out there. Haha! But I did not get to see either one of them. Love was there too.

Sometimes, I question myself with regards to the things that I do. Haish~

My right wisdom teeth are acting up. My gums are swelled up I think. It's so uncomfortable. I cant even bring myself to chew on the right side anymore. Sheesh~ Dear gums and teeth, bear with me for two more weeks alrite? I'll bring you to visit the dentist soon.

Hello there. :) It's been a while hasn't it? A summary of my life so far.....HAHAH! Just kidding.

It's the month of AUGUST!!! It's Akhim's birthday month! Sexciting~ Had a 'low-profile' celebration this year, just between the two of us, compared to previous years where I'd have a big celebration with his family and friends etc. Fun, fun, fun.

Thank God, this year, has been a relatively good year for us, and I hope that the years ahead will be much, much better. :) God willing~