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It's been a while since I've posted a happy, happy entry... =)

By right, I should be at home on a Saturday studying for my upcoming exams...But nOooooOOooOooo.....I went out with Sayang, Kak Y, M, N and the 2 umis to Escape Theme Park...I guess it's been ages since I've been there..And I found out that admission is free for senior citizens..Perhaps, I should bring daddy-o there..It'll be free for him, but then again, I wonder, what rides would he prob take..Whahahaha! =P

Went to Cavana to have lunch...Yummy yummy... *slurp* I want more of Cavana...But caution, I had such a bad dining experience at the outlet at Causeway Point..It seems to be like a totally different company or something... Heh..The one at White Sands is nice though... =) Happy start to the day...

If you've been to Downtown East (which I'm sure many of you would have), there's the kiddy rides eg. the choo-choo train and the merr-g0-round at the atrium..I think those are total daylight robberies or something..$3 for a single ride which lasts for less than 10 mins..*faints*

First stop at Escape: The Inverter

Sayang and M were dragging Umi Y to the Inverter...Poor her..She was such a poor thing..She was almost on the verge of tears I'm telling you...

Niwae, for someone who has a driving license for more than a year, she has yet to have a go at the GoKart..Haha! I prefer real cars niwae.. =P So there she was, followed her Sayang to queue...Her main concern: she wouldn't pass the height limit for the ride. Wierd huh?

Me: What if I'm below the height limit? Then how?

Sayang: Then show them ur driving license. You could freaking drive a car, what more a GoKart?

Me: Errrr...........

(as we're nearing the queue)

Me: I don't think I meet the height limit....

Sayang: Try to pretend to walk next to it and stand straight...(after checking out the height) *silence*

Me: I'm not above the height limit am I?

Sayang: Don't care lah...Just queue...

So, I guess you guys might have already guessed how tall or to be precise, how short I am..Whahahahha!

But niwae, that clever Sayang of mine, he was holding on to this really small shark-like soft toy when he was on the GoKart..And he had to delay the queue after we were done coz apparently the shark flew out of his hand and the staff had to go one round of the circuit to find it..By the time it came back, it was kinda black that the staff said that he should dump it in the washing machine first..whaha!

Well well well...It was fun fun fun!!!!!! =) Last chance to pamper myself..After this, I should really get down to studying proper..Heh!

And Sayang, sorry k? I love you....You know I do...*muacks*

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Tried as I might not to sound too depressed, but I cant seem to help it..Just now felt so different when we were on our own..And I couldn't understand why...Suddenly, we were so formal to each other...Or am I just seeing things in a different light? Or am I too picky about nitty-gritty stuffs?

No, PY...I'm not sad..Or am I in denial? I wonder....

Niwae......A list of things that I wanna do as soon as the exams are over:
1) A trip down to Pulau Ubin
2) A trip down to Tekka to let PY and SZ try bone steak...Yummy!
3) Sakura International Buffet
4) Watch lots of movies!!!!!!!!!!!
5) Read lots of books!!!!!!!!!!!!
6) Lemme think about more things that I wanna do..haha! =P

But niwae, I was thinking perhaps I shouldn't be reading too much into it...At the end of the day, what PY told me last night is true.. "By the look of it, this guy here really loves you and cares a lot for you..." =)

Sayang....I haven't said it to you for quite some time.. I love you...

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I hope it has not come to a point that my patience has run out...

I guess he can't even understand me now...

We quarrel ever so often...I think...There was once when he just said "I just can't understand why...."

I just realized that such a small lil thing affected me so much...And he must be thinking "But she din even scold you...." The silence was killing me...And now, all I could afford to do was cry....

What on earth is wrong..Suddenly, everything doesn't seem right...

Please give me the strength to get over this...I guess I should just take a chill pill and relax...

wat else can i say?

To all the peeps who have been reading my blog, don't worry, I'm fine...I'm trying my very best to tell myself that everything's alright... =)

My dearies have been telling me "Mardi...Why do u sound so sad in your blog? But when we meet you and see you, you're so jovial and stuffs...." Honestly, I don't know...

Thinking that you were safely home and to be called on like that, 'reprimanded' for something that I don't even know about, definitely doesn't feel nice...

"As his girlfriend, I hope you talk to him"

I was trying to let her know that I wasn't even aware..I'm so sure that they think that I'm with him...But i'm not....I really wasn't...

And I couldn't help but to cry when he answered my call the second time I called....Unhappy with someone else, and I got the telling off...Haiz~

PS. I went to watch Forbidden Kingdom last night..Go watch...nice.. =)

life since the last entry

It's been a while since i updated...

In short, went for the Social Workers' Day Dinner @ Meritus Mandarin. It was a whole load of fun.

What else......

Exams are around the corner...I'm so unprepared..Well, no surprise...That's what i always say every sem...

Some things are deemed as right by others...And because they are your elders, you are obliged to go their way too...

I've learnt a few things about myself lately...The level of patience in me, is somehow thinning away...By right, it shouldn't be this way...I shouldn't snap too easily at people, especially him...I'm sorry...But I just dun understand why...

I shouldn't force people into doing things that they are unable to do or unwilling to, just to get what I want..Sometimes, I've gotta understand that not everything go my way...Haiz~

When initially you think it's alright, but over time you realize it's not, what are you supposed to do? I wonder......................................

the warmth in your eyes....

Went to have dinner @ Fig 'n' Olive with Sayang..Wanted to try something new..And ho ho ho..it was so filling! Ate the Olio Andalucia Skewer..Whoa..Couldn't even finish it..And Sayang was soaking the salad i gave him in olive oil...Sayang Sayang...

And his uncle (who is really, extremely young) is cool! Haha~ He was so nice..

Anyway, while waiting for the taxi, Sayang was looking at me longingly...And i dunno why, at that point, suddenly, a surge of warmth rushed through..It was a nice feeling...A feeling that I haven't felt for the longest time..Haiz~

Would you prefer it if I were to leave you on your own Sayang? Was just wondering.....

I dunno why but I'd start to feel uneasy when we part and I know that he's not going home..That he'll still be outside...Even though I know that he'll know how to take good care of himself...

And then I started to weep..

I just wanted you to know that well.....I love you...........................