Took a lil trip down to Ikea yesterday with the Love. It felt like we were looking for things for our own house, well at least it really looked like it, at the rate that we were looking at the wardrobes. Haha~ Just a single wardrobe for the both of us costs about $3k+. Just a wardrobe. Can you just imagine that. Tsk tsk tsk~ But the trip to Ikea was a nice retreat it seemed, as well as some personal alone time, being able to talk about things that perhaps we might not have the time or convenience for over the phone.

Grandma met her long lost eldest sister today, at the wedding function. It felt so warm, so nice. I almost teared looking at their reunification. It just seemed so wow~ I can't even find the words to describe it.

There's only one thing that I don't really fancy when it comes to relative's wedding or function.
Disclaimer --> conversation will usually be in Malay

Relative: So, what are you doing now? Still studying?
Me: Nolah, I'm working already.
Relative: Oh working..how old are you niwae?
Me: 23 this year *smiles*
Relative: Ah, it'll be your turn soon huh? =D

Feels the heat. Feels the pressure. Haiz~

I feel that they should treat me like an adult. I'm not a little kid anymore. As much as I know that I'm still under their care, personally, I don't feel that they have the right to do what they did. Just because they're my elders. So what? They don't let me out on the pretext that it's a public holiday. Fine. I shall just coop myself in the room. I don't care, I wanna protest.

How do you expect me to be truthful when I know that when I try, they will still say no.

Life sucks.

I think my own health is taking a toll on me. It is during this time you wonder whether you're really 100% fine. And when one thing just doesn't seem to go right with your body, all the other things that you might not have taken notice before seemed so serious and obvious suddenly. I guess this is how the downward spiral feels like.

Went to watch Robin Hood at AMK Hub just now. Little did I expect that the running time was 140minutes. He initially thought that I was falling asleep. Heh~

Well, how do I rate it...It was witty at times. It was boring at times too, especially when they were babbling away in their accent, and in which I couldn't make out what they were saying, simply because subtitles was in Mandarin. Then again, I guess, if you're going to catch the movie anytime soon, just go watch it with an open mind. The last thing that you should do is to expect a brilliant show. Heh~ Then again, this is just my personal view. :)

But watching all these kind of movies, it makes me wonder whether life was really like that during that period of time. How abiding the people were to the king, and how great the loyalty of the people were to the king. How naive a king can be. How easy it is to be a king, without weighing the abilities and capabilities of the person. Makes you wonder doesn't it? Heh~

Who ever said that being in a relationship or being in love was ever going to be smooth sailing and easy? What happens when both have their own set of views and perspectives that just seem to clash? What if it's an issue that shouldn't or cannot be compromised?

It's not that I don't love you. In fact, I love you very, very much. I really, really do.

But I guess sometimes, some issues just need to be ironed it, shouldn't it?

I miss you. I miss the good and carefree times that we used to have.

Sometimes I think our views are just so different. We were brought up differently, we had different life experiences. Sometimes I think it's just too different.

Sometimes you're unable to understand where I'm coming from, and sometimes I'm unable to understand your perspectives too.

How are we able to make our views clearer? How are we able to come to a compromise and a mutual understanding?

Haiz~

I posted the translated lyrics earlier. Check it out. I love this song! Thanks to Sanah baby.

My throat always feel so dry at night, no matter how much water I drink. Nyeh~ Such a horrible feeling.

Tmr's dept prawning day. Everybody seemed so excited. Heh~ I hope it'll be fun! :)

Sometimes I wonder.

In life, what is the hardest thing to do?

When someone sees it from another point of view, and shares with you, what it seemed to be, I guess truth hurts sometimes doesn't it?

I hope that Lime Juice will be ok. *hugs tight* Limey Juicey, if you're reading this, just so you know, I'm just a bear's throw away from you.

Sometimes I wonder how to differentiate when someone is faking depression or is really suffering from depression. Went down to AH to have dinner with the Love, and the pt came to sit with us while we were having dinner. Well, he broke down into tears when he was talking abt how stressed he was and that his gf was one of the main issues as to why he was depressed. But it's been almost a year since he was enlisted, and he still worries about his gf. And he's only 19. Hmm~ the girl must mean a lot to him, I guess. And suddenly, Sayang looked like Uncle Aggy. Haha~ And the guy was like "Lucky I meet your boyfriend tonight. If not." Well, then over time I'm not sure if the guy is really suffering from depression or not. He looked manipulative. Haha! Or maybe, it's just me being me who thinks too much. Heh~

Take care Sayang! Get well soon k?

As A Man - Gummy

You got me twisted
A new start is always frightening
But at least this time I truly believe it's love
Trying to be more happy than my painful separation
You and me should promise eternity and swear on it

But frequent interest may give minor pressure
Might get annoyed of the long calls I don't want to end
You might call the expanding love, obsession
As time goes by, I'm getting smaller

Since you're a man, since you're a man
You wouldn't know even if you died
Since I'm lacking, since I'm foolish
I'm only looking at you
Since you're a man, since you're a man
You don't understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won't be able to change
because you're a man, because you're a man

You're next to me but why does my heart feel empty
Why is it that your words "I Love You" don't sound the same as before
The long waits are getting harder and harder
I think of giving up hundreds of times
I feel uneasy and can't sleep until you fall asleep
I go crazy when I can't contact you throughout the night

I'm not a woman who expects many things
But I collapse from one of your inattentive words

Since you're a man, since you're a man
You wouldn't know even if you died
Since I'm lacking, since I'm foolish
I'm only looking at you
Since you're a man, since you're a man
You don't understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won't be able to change
because you're a man, because you're a man

I still feel like when we first met
I flutter in front of your smile
But even these small expressions are nowhere to be found between us
But since you're a man, you're my man
I still love you

Since you're a man, since you're a man
You wouldn't know even if you died
Since I'm lacking, since I'm foolish
I'm only looking at you
Since you're a man, since you're a man
You don't understand me
You probably just want to be free, you probably won't be able to change
because you're a man, because you're a man

Both has different issues that they are concerned about. Somehow, I don't know why but I was glad that he brought it up. No relationship is ever perfect. But what's most important is to share your grievances and learn from it, and grow from it.

As much as I don't really fancy those Channel 8 series because sometimes they can just be soooooo ugh, I somehow like this phrase a lot "A little flaw is the most perfect".

Goodnight earthlings. Ima go and think what we can do tmr. :)

Thankiew Sayang for making your way all the way down to AMK. To really pop by my window, to pass me the CO2 tabbies and to send a flying kiss to me. I feel so loved. I still can't stop smiling now. And oh~ you look so, so good in the jacket! haha...And i looked like shit next to u. Haha! Tonight and yesternight made me feel that it's all worth it, and how this relationship means so much to me.

Love you much, much Sayang! *muacks*

*wide grin* I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm feeling so much better right now. As much as I know it's not exactly what I want to tell you, but I wish to be discreet, and hopefully with that, it made some sense to you.

Watched Enchanted on TV tonight. I love that movie! Suddenly, it felt vert thought provoking when I watched it this time round. The phrase in the movie that threw itself at me was when the couple who were supposedly going through the process of divorce and the lady said "Everybody has problems, but/so do you sacrifice the good times for the bad?" Food for thought don't you think? To me, at least.

So I guess, based on that, my dear friends will have a sense of my stand at this present moment? Heh~

Had a good talk with a few lovely souls for the past week. They each have their own views and at the same time there is one common view that they all have. Then again, everybody is aware that it is easier said than done.

If only we were taught on how to handle situations like that. I get strong reactions from some, while others feel that they wun know what to do either if their in my position. Maybe, i shud cut myself into two. Heh~

To all those who have provided me with a listening ear and being there for me, thankiew. :)