initiative, initiative, initiative. When is that good and when is that bad? I guess it's bad when you don't follow up after that? Wat nonsense am i blabbering about.
I dunno why but I'm feeling a lil different nowadays. Like he said, to him, it's a transition period to full-time job, a period of freedom..But then, it doesn't help if i feel like it seems to be only him who gets the best out of it, does it? I definitely don't have a similar sentiment as him. Then again, forcing someone to do things the way you like it to be won't help make things better either. Haiz~
Would this how life will be like when both are working? Wasn't i right to say that even in the past, anything that i were to say, u'd just respond by saying, "you shud understand my situation". Wouldn't that naturally make me feel like not to say anything at all, knowing that i'd get a similar response anyway?
I said what i could. Seeing u and spending time with you is getting harder than i thought. I shouldn't be calculative. It's unhealthy. At times, just getting a reply from you it's so hard. It's little things like this that matters so much to me. Nobody makes an effort to start a topic anymore. Nothing to say=hanging up.
I'm not trying to be the nice one. Neither am i trying to hide my reasons under the disguise of not knowing what to say. It's just that saying it, makes my heart ache even more.
Tears flowing down my cheek while i'm typing this. How do i let you know how i truly feel without making it sound like as if it is wrong of me to feel this way? I wonder...
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