.:: omg_so happy! ::.

heez..got so many things to write about..my gosh..okok, let's start from friday..well, well, well..there was the sec schs debate that i had to adjudicate..my gosh..both the debates were like ^speechless^..really..but, i think i would get into trouble! haha..i'm sooo not good in adjudicating..my goodness..when it's time for the adjudicators sharing session, i sooo haf nothing to say..the other adjudicators must think that i'm such a useless bugger..oh my..luckily, none of the teams approach me..or else, i'll be like, "well, i really think that you guys did well but content wise, i dun really haf anything to say"..hahakz..i mean, the other adjudicator gave such a detailed 'debrief'..oh my, come to think of it, i dun mind being a shadow adjudicator..heez..and i think i'll be for the next round..oh well...

And then came saturday..hehe..oh well, the earlier part of the day wasn't something that i was looking forward to during the weekends..but i haf to admit that it was fun! hahakz..and i got scolded by this nyonya for knocking on her door too hard and making too much noise..haiyoy..she didn't wanna come to the door what..geez..whatluck..

and then, hehe..the moment that i've been waiting for..went to the trophy shop to settle the trophies for gpa..hehe..it was sooo fun! hehe..i had the time of my life..we spent 3+hours in the shop..can't believe it! the woman was like sooo suaku! i think she's new..we tried to explian to her in the simplest form of english and she still doesn't understand..my gosh..and keep on mistaking us for NJC..until 'he' had to tell her that we're from NYJC..gosh..hahakz..and he kept on saying that everything is also cacat..hehe..so funny..hafiz pun tak leh angkat seh..hehe..and then, we were supposed to take nel back..i already decided to take it to hougang as i got a straight bus what..but then all the three of us got into the train that goes towards harbour front..that means changing at dhoby ghaut lah..and then, when inside already, i told him actually i intended to take it to hougang and take bus from there..hehe..and then he was like "eh, i also can take to hougang. i got straight bus also. you still wan to go hougang not?" and then, the three of us looked like fools, dropped off at Little India, which is one station after farrer park and took the train all the way to hougang..can't believe it man..is that a sign? nah, i doubt so..maybe he just felt like taking a bus after all..oh well..haiz..if only there'll be more of those times..haiz..learnt quite a lot about him during the trip..hehe..i'm so on cloud nine now..hehe..

yeah! ma dad bought a new printer..it's marvellous..it's sooo fast..hehe..professional baby..hehe..

got my top for the cny celebration already..it's this black blouse with flowers in front and haf some pink stuffs at the sleeves..omg..pink..bleaghx..

haiz..my item!!!!! i'm so goddamn nervous now..geez..

my ma 'upped' my daily allowance..hehe..wonder what made her to do that..hmmm...

you guys should really try the black pepper seafood pasta from swensen's..it's simply delicious..but make sure can take spicyness ah..the more you eat, the more spicy it gets..^slurp^

.:: so freaked out rite now ::. happy happy .::

oh my gosh...had the worst encounter of my life yest..my goodness..i'm soooo paranoid now..that guy is like sooo wierd...shook my hand while going up the stairs and never wanna let go..goodness gracious..brr..then he happily patted my head! how dare he!!!!!! hmmph.. and the thing is, i dun even noe him! he followed me all the way to the front of my lift..i'm sooo scared that he'll stalk me..now i need people to pick me up from home and send me back home..i feel so kiddy..*blush*blush* thanks hafiz for picking me up in the morning..thanks char for your willingness to send me back home..hehe..freaky! the last things i want is for him to wait for me at my void deck! sicko! psycho! wierdo! AARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh, and after that, came the happiest moment of my life..hehe..he msged me!! hehe..so happy..asked for my help some more..hehe..and most prob, he following me to the trophy shop! yeah! yippee..i'm over the moon man..heez..

then, saw him in the library just now..hehe..got talk to me leh..very happy..then still can fool me..bleaghx..hate you! hmmph..very excited now..hehe..gonna wait in school until he comes back then get to see him again..hehe...now, he and im like close already ah..everytime also i see them together..hehe..maybe can korek some info from im..hehe..

i was almost dying lah when i ran 2.4km..aiyoh..i breathless already ah..fainting, collapsing, dying..but noooooo..they still make me run..haiyoy..headache ah..geez..

later got adjudication thingy..bleaghx..quite scared act now..brr...

oh yeah, i think there's a cute guy in the bus that i take every morning to school..hehe..from st. gabriel i think..but too bad..my "youseetoomuch" is better looking..haha!

.:: wierd ::. wierd .::

hey hey..so tiring ah today..had cross country yest..didn't do anything actually..just stand there and be barricade..hehe..basking in the hot sun..hehe..=P

den after that, went to eat dinner with the other OGLs: para, olivia, kenneth and terry..went to j8 to eat at mac..my gosh..terry, you took so long to come..haiyoy..so loving towards simin..haiyoy..but the thing is, they are still not together..hey dude, wanna wait until when ah? we made a deal rite..v-day yeah..hehe..=P then we went to take neoprints and kenneth die2 also dun wan to take with us..i wonder why..the pictures we took all very nice lei! hehe..

aiyoh, then kena scolding from my parents..so sad ah..but nvm..got out of it..hehe..

then my dad gave this stupid wierd IQ test thingy to see how creative i am..and let me tell you, i'm sooo not creative..hehe..forgot to bring the stuffs to sch..if not can test the rest..hehe..i'll surely haf fun wan..hehe..

aargh!!! having meetin with the j1s mlcs and i'm so not ready..what's more..even worse..i forgot to bring the piece of paper..shoot..bleaghz..

.:: MiXeD eMoTiOnS ::.

haiz..first it's my mum..then it's my dad..i tell you..they really have serious issues man..i seriously think that they are undergoing menopause..small little things also can be so angry..haiyoy..makes me angry too!

i really think that sanah makes sense..in the sense that i think he was toyin and playin me out when he asked me to talk to his girlfriend..i really think so..why was i sooo stoopid to have done what he asked me too? haiyoy..i should haf been smarter and think of the ulterior motive that he could probably be having..me and my stupid self..haiz..can't believe this..haiyoy..miserable, miserable me...well, i noe that i should stop thinking about him or whatsoever..haiz..it's not as i made the mistake or anything like that..haiz..sanah said, maybe once i find somebody new, then i'll be able to forget about him..i think so too..but the person i haf feelings for now..haiz..oh nvm..

i felt so stupid..juz now zhiyang helped me to cut and paste his blog add..my gosh..hehe..so embarassing..haha..

had my cny celebration dry run yest..ended so late..until 8..haiz..so tiring..then i think the teacher like not quite happy like that you know..so sad ah..still wondering what am i gonna wear on that day..muz go compass point and do shopping..got metro sale then selling loads of ny clothes..hehe..i'm feeling so 'chinesey'..if that ever makes sense..heez..

can't believe that there are co many conflicts going on.invisible conflicts i should say..hope everything will be back to normal..i kinda dun feel it..does that make me ignorant? oh gosh..i talk to everybody that i know and see what..haiz..oh well..~sigh~

sometimes, i dunno why but i feel so alone..haiz..why am i feeling this way? gosh..i shouldn't be feeling this way wat..oh my..this is sooo not happening..

=P bleaghx =P

Aargh!!!!! i simply dun understand my mum..my gosh..i think she's experiencing menopause..seriously..my goddness..just can't understand her at all..what's so wrong with closing my room door and having my own privacy?! AARGH!!!!! bleaghx!

sanah's back in da house people..she looks better..hehe..i hope she's feeling better tho..she's sitting right beside me now looking at neoprints..hehe..

yest, went to go shopping with ian and char..went town..got a nice pencil box from the wallet shop thingy with the word 'DUH!' written on it..so cool and so cheap..i like!..hehe..and it's blue in colour too!!!

ha, finally went to the trophy shop to look at the trophies for gpa..so many of them..gotta go tell the committee later on.

i saw him yest! but then, no point getting excited i feel..coz he doesn't even noe anything about what i'm feeling..hehe..oh well..did i tell you char calls him "youseetoomuch" and sanah calls him "rahmanz"..of coz that's not his real name! d-uh?! sorry yeah rahman, had to pinjam your name for a while..

it's cross country tml..! luckily i signed up as an official..then no need to run so much..hahakz..heez..

today's the dry dun for the cny celebration..i think my co-emcee is weird..hehe..i dunno why but i think so..he's like so against speaking english..wierd guy..

.:: dunno what i'm feeling now ::.

heez...i seem so busy yet so slack now..gosh..haiz..i think my second sis and her husband have a major prob man..my goodness..it's like..oh nvm..talking and thinking about them just makes me, bleaghx..

so excited..going to heeren's to shop with char today after settling the trophy thingy..hehe..got the vouchers as a birthday present from my bestest and loving pals..hehe..must make full use of the vouchers..cannot waste it..hehe..can you just imagine the whole load of things that i can possibly buy?! i'm sooo excited! hehe.. =P

huh, i kept dreaming of him..i dunno why..it's like, my goodness..you know sometimes, i just wish that i can haf you know some kind of potion that can just make me forget everything about the past..including you..yes you! you've made my life so miserable that i dun think i'm the mardiana that i was once..before you came and destroyed everything..haiz..i was stupid too anyway..oh well..

sometimes, i feel that the mixed feelings that i haf for someone won't get me anywhere..in the sense, what can i actually expect from him? my frenz said that even if anything were to happen, it'll be after the a levels..haiz..so sad rite.. =( oh well..

was talking to char last night about V-day..just realised that this is the first ever year that i'm single..alone..hahakz..found it weird initially..after so used to having somebody with me for the past 5 years..hmm..oh well, i wonder how it feels like without anybody..haiz..

nowadays, i keep on thinking what his reaction would be when he sees me..would he pretend that he didn't see me? would he look at me and smile? would he even tegur me? haiz..oh well..in the first place, why am i even wondering? why am i still thinkin of him? omg..i shall not and will not talk about him anymore in my future entries..*i'll try*

oh, my co-emcee for cny celebration, is lilke so tall! my gosh..can you imagine me standing beside him? it'll be damn funnylah..goodness..it'll be as funny as the picture that i took with hj..hehe..and when i talk to him, i'll haf to strain my neck to look up..hahakz..

*smilez*

i'm so happy..i finally have a new blog skin with a tagboard and stuffs..so happy! thanks char! love ya..*muackz*

guess what? my dad gave me like 70 bucks for me to pay my bill..gosh..so happy..i mean, he's never done that..but he said next time he won't pay for it already..hehe..thanks dad!

hey people, i really need your comments on this 'new' blog of mine..hehe..must hor..i'm very excited..hehe..

oh well, i'm really2 scared now..the invites is like in 2 weeks..gpa saringan in is like a month's time and i've yet to get the j1s to practise for the item..what if it become a flop? what will the rest of the committee think of me?! oh gosh..haiz..AARGH!!!!

oh, i msged his ma yest wishing a selamat hari raya haji..just had the urge to..i hope he doesn't find out about it..haiz..or else, i'll be in deep shit..oh well, if he dares to do anything, i might as well complain to his ma..hahakz..and they all still dun seem to believe that i'm not attached..izzit so hard to believe? gosh..hmmm...nvm..

feel so shitty now suddenly..wanna go back to mf someday..visti band and...yeah hoping to see somebody..but nvm..oh well..

.:: confused ::.

phew, just delivered my speech on the significance of hari raya..my gosh..such a short notice, but nevermind..it's ok..thanks fizah for contributing some info..and mrs ho shook my hand! geeez..

niwae, should really ask char to get me a nice, wonderful blog skin..maybe one that has taufik? or even some bollywood actor that i like..haha..how great would that be..heez..i think my blog nows look kinda parlimentary..hahakz..

can't believe it man, gpa and the invites are like sooo near..i've yet to prepare the saringan item..gosh..can somebody help me please?!?!?! haiz~

i wish that i hadn't done things that i did in the past..i dunno..suddenly just have the thought..the past suddenly began to haunt me once again..haiz..just as much as it ry to forget and erase memories of the past, i just can't seem to..why? why? why? jerks... =x

..gd news..bad news..

hey hey..i'd beta get terry to make my blog until very nice like char's! hahakz..her's is like sooo nice..with the cursor thingy..haiz..yeah, i'm so not IT savvy..hehe..oh well..the match last night was like soo great...! how i wished i was there, at the stadium watching it live..so sad ah..haiz.. =(

my comp's like so down now..hahakz..or maybe, i can ask for a new one..with everything new..heez..*wink*wink*

guess what? i heard that sanah and char they all getting me taufiq's album as my birthday present! this is like sooo great..hehe..how nice of them yeah..they even thought of getting it signed by him with a birthday message by him..ooh..

i saw afiq that day..i was in the bus and it passed by mf..i saw at the basketball court playing soccer..he still looks the same, with the bandage on his hand..i really wonder how i'll react when i meet him face-to-face..should i smile at him? or should i just look away? i wonder whether he's completed all his 6 treatments for his tatoos...

oh gosh..my parents finally found about my bill..so sickening..they actually opened up my bill without my permission..yes, i know they are my parents but, hello?! it has my name on it..haiz..and they shouldn't make so much noise because all this while i've been paying for the bill myself and never asked them for the money what..haiyoy..headache ah..

awww...so sweet =)

i'm so happy! my gosh..i can't believe it..my og10 gave me this nice photo gallery frame thingy as a present from all of them..i'm like sooo touched..heez..i was about to cry but i was too engrossed in my roti john..hahakz..hehe..didn't really expect though..i kinda thought that they have something for us but not something like this..OG10, I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! YOU GUYS RAWK! Woohoo!!! even para and rui jue..yes, you guys. you rawk too! love ya..heez...

hmm...let's see..will everybody be able to read my blog then? even when i don't know them? hmm..this is kinda scary..hmmm..oh well, whatever..but whatever it is, shh yeah..hehe..

haiz..will what i've been hoping for come true? hmmm..don't wanna set my hopes too high..oh well..hmmm...

oh, and aman, yeah, i've rebonded my hair..hehe..

R E S O L U T I O N S. yeah rite...

heez..just had the mlcs orientation yest..very, very tiring..haiz..can't believe it..i was indeed an extremely happy girl yest..you know why.. ;-)

i dunno why but i feel that i myself am a hypocrite..this sucks so bad..

char gave me this cute little elephant earrings from genting..very cute..wearing it now..heez..

haiz, i dunnolah..i think my life's in such a mess right now..it's like i think i am, but i think i'm not..so confused..heyz, that's my fav song..

resolution for the new year:
1. do all my assignments on time and STOP procrastinating
2. pay attention in all classes, be it tutorials or lectures
3. be nicer to my friends and the people around me
4. cut down on the food that i eat, coz i think i'm gaining weight
5. try to be more patient
6. listen to my parents more
hmmm...anything else? get a bf soon..hahakz..jk..

.:: l o s t 4 w o r d s ::.

one week of orientation is finally over..kinda miss it actually..have to say that i had lots of fun..and i'm glad that og 10 had fun too! you rawk guys..hehe..*muackz*

and now, back to school..hate this..yikes..haiz..oh well, what to do..niwae, made a lot of new frenz..met a lot of new people..very exciting..hehe..

oh yeah, i rebonded my hair..like on new year's day.hehe..i think i look neater now..heez..=P