There have been some things that you used to do, that I was not very happy about it. And you'll keep defending saying that it's you, that's how you lead your life. And you were fixed on me having to adapt to you. Fair enough.

But I don't understand why sometimes, it just doesn't get to you that sometimes the things that you do, the things that you say, it's misleading to the people whom you are talking to. You will then say, it's their problem what they want to think. But do you know how emotionally draining and psychologically draining it is on me.

A big NO-NO, is to call a 'galfren' of yours honey. Seriously, what kind of msg are u trying to send? Honestly. And the worst part was, you laughed it off, coz you're thinking in your head "why is she over-reacting? i'm just talking to a friend, that's all". That's what YOU think.

Now you see, it's things like this that makes me tired of saying anything at all.

And yes, girls are particular abt small lil things. I thought you identify 'galfren' as your female frens, don't you? Sorry, but I'm being a lil sensitive over here.

And until you understand what I'm saying here, and what I've been trying to say all these while, I refuse to say anything more.

There's a lot of things on my mind.......And I don't even know where to start....

• A friend was asking me a question with regards to relationship as she and her bf were having issues and there were definitely things that she has been unhappy with in the relationship. She was asking if one is expected to get used to the fact that over time, in a relationship, the other party tend to be less romantic or just can't seem to be bothered anymore. Personally, I feel that it's not fair to get used to it, but sometimes, when two people get so comfortable with each other, I guess, sometimes, small lil things like this tend to be overlooked. However, just because you've been together in a relationship long enough, doesn't mean that all efforts in maintaining the romance in the relationship should go just like that.

• I used to hear that when a couple is together for 10 years, the chances of getting married and settling down is rather low. My psychologist friend told me that the peak period of loving someone is 7years. And after that, efforts need to be made to maintain the love and watnots in the relationship. How true is it? I'm not sure. .

• Things have been brought up to a greater level at home. Why do the old folks have to resort to all this? No doubt I know that they get worried if I'm home late etc. But is there a need to resort to whatever that they're resorting to? When I didn't tell them, they made so much noise about me not telling them where I went when I'm home late. Now that I made the effort to tell them, they are still unhappy about it. How old am I that I will still need a curfew? It's not that I'm home after midnight you know. I will know how to take care of myself, that I can assure you. Personally, I want my life, and I need my life. My life does not equal to me staying at home all the time. What more can I say. At the end of the day, I go home too rite? You want me to be home on Sundays, I do that. There are just things that I want to do outside apart from going to work and come home. I want to spend time with my friends, mingle around with my friends and do things that I enjoy doing. Have you ever listened to my point of view? Have you ever listened to what I want? Have you ever?

• Sometimes, have you ever felt like you're being a hindrance to someone else's life?

I'm only 23, but why do I have to think about so many things? Gosh~

Seriously, how can anybody be so ngek? I mean, you're complaining that I don't respect you enough when I don't tell you that I'm coming home late. Fair enough, so I tell you. You still make noise, this time round, it's about another thing. C'mon. Seriously, you want to coop me up in the house issit? I don't know what to say already lah.

Another annual trip to Boya, this time round, with different family members. Haiz~ I'm getting bored of it. Haha! Why can't I go to somewhere else in the month of June? Like Korea, China, Australia. Sounds so much better doesn't it? :p Heh~ 11 days sound super long man. And 5days in Boyan. Goodness gracious. I think I might just drop dead and die.

I'm going to miss everybody. And what made it worse was that the start of my leave is Por-Por's last day at work. Colleagues come and go but friendship will always remain. Don't forget about me ok, Por-Por? Rmb to keep in touch.

Am presently at the holding area. Flight's at 1630hrs I think. And I'm feeling all sleepy and groggy. Can I not go Mummy? Please.....~