humm

on a happier note, i met cikgu dian just now..yes indeed..cikgu dian...my malay teacher when i was in sec 2...coolness....she's due in january..heehee...but i did something so funny to tegur her...i just went up to her and tapped her on her shoulder..it took her some time before she actually realised it was me..heh...and wen i was leaving she was like shouting to me "mardiana, bila makan nasi minyak jangan lupa jemput!" it was nice bumping into you cikgu! you look pretty pretty still..heee....

i've always thought that i was easy-going..i've always thought that i can adapt well to my surroundings...i really really thought so..

it was only when i'm placed in such a surrounding, only then did i realize hey..i dun tink i'm that easy-going after all...being around pple whom you don't know...somehow, makes me feel a lil bit out of place..makes me feel kinda listless (like how Sayang would always say)...and i realize...i can get kinda jealous easily at times too....haiz~

and i realize how much impact Sayang has on me...now i understand what it means when u really feel what someone is going thru...now i really understand when it means that it hurts you to see someone in a particular state...that's what i'm feeling when Sayang was like pouring everything out..it's like i wanna do something to make him feel better..i wish i could do something..but apparently i guess...i dun even noe what i can actually do...i really dunno...it really hurts me to see him in this state..that now, i kinda feel guilty for feeling whatever that i used to feel at times in the past..

Sayang...everything will be ok..one step at a time..remember that..and whatever happens...you will always have me to fall back on ok?