my biggest fear is that..what if one day...one day when i cant take the internal struggle within me anymore...
there seems to be 1001 things in my mind..regarding my school...you...and us...how am i ever able to put it out to you and list it one by one what i'm preoccupied with...it's difficult...coz i just dunno where to start...i dunno what to say...
it's an internal conflict...coz i know i shouldn't be feeling that way..coz it's just not right...and u might even be upset...but that's the thing, i dun even noe what i'm feeling exactly...i dun even noe how to explain to you...not everything is in black and white..not everything is as clear cut as it seems to be...
or i guess at times, i'm narrow minded...just looking at the small picture...ya, i guess you're right...i should give you the chance to say what u wanna say...but i guess sometimes, it's natural for humans to forget the fact that an unintentional and sincere gesture might have an otherwise consequence on another party...
this means so much to me...i'm trying as hard as i can to push all these negative thoughts and feelings out of my head...
but i dunno why...maybe it's just me...maybe i'm thinking too much...but i dunno why at times i feel like you're so far away from me..in all sense...i really dunno...dun ask me why....
i'm scared...i'm really scared...
i wanna laugh and joke arnd with you.....like we ALWAYS used to...
i hate the silences...or perhaps, silence is better...gosh...i really dunno...
i'm really sorry Sayang...i really am....
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