stuffed up

i'm feeling so stuffed up rite now..nose is like super blocked..cant breathe properly..was feeling breathless and flustered the whole of last nite..i had an uneasy feeling last nite..but ain't sure abt wat..

niwae, last nite, while feeling stuffed and wat not, it made me think of a lot of things..

how throughout my life, from last time till now, i often take things for granted..take my studies for example..always thinking that it'll turn out fine if i always burn the midnight oil..even tho i know for a fact that it's not good..and it just takes on occasion wer i'll flunk the exams to make me realize that it doesn't work all the time..

i gotta learn how to take control of my life..learn to take control of my emotions..

and i'm glad that my frenz, my girls haf been with through the years..they are like practically the ultimate guide to mardiana..you guys know who you are..=) they haf seen my smiles, seen my tears..and even seen me blown up..

i can still rmb very clearly a time during sec sch..wen we all were just separated..why? over a stupid misunderstanding..and gosh..it was definitely hard to build the friendship once again..it was at that pt of time that i felt so lost..and if we were to still follow our emotions at that pt of time, we wouldn't be together till now..rite girls? u noe jolly well wat i'm talking abt..

the bdae celebration tat they secretly planned wit my ma..my whole fam was in cahoots wit them! i was blinded..geez..thinking that it was just a normal fam celebration..they neva fail to surprise me everytime..

always gg mad whenever we meet..like animals on the loose! oops! =P and we dun care!

wateva it is, we've stayed thru thick and thin together..

seriously, wat wud i do without them? they totally brought colours to my life..

*muackz* i love every single one of u..

and to meet the one person who is willing to make u happy, understands u..and never to do things that i once went through..gosh..i shud really be grateful with the people that i'm blessed with..a friendship of 3 yrs..and then brought to a higher level..gosh..why didn't it happen earlier? i feel totally in bliss wen wit you..i'm glad that it happened..my life seems to haf taken a 180degrees turn wen wit you..u've shown to me that it's possible to meet someone who will appreciate me for who i am..thank you so much for being in my life..and all that we haf to go thru now..i'm willing to face all this with you..coz i know that it'll be better in time to come..i know..

*muackz* i love you..