.:: what shud i do? ::.

tot of just 'penning' down my thoughts before going for debate later..hmmm..second entry of the day..

finally i've completed my carnal knowledge essay..what a relief..but i think seriously, i wrote like total rubbish lah ok..haiz..oh well..still gor the othello essay to do..due tml..still must read my othello text..how can i possibly finish reading the text by tonight? haiz..must try..oh well..

suddenly my past just came back to me..it's not anybody's fault..dun worry..i think i shouldn't be hiding soo many things from people..haiz..i dunno..i'm such a loser..afraid to do so many things..even telling the truth..my gosh..i dunno..but you know sometimes the feeling when you just dun feel like talking and you just dun feel like telling anybody anything? yet, you just want to tell somebody coz you just feeling lonely and nobody to talk to..i dunno..i really dunno what's happening to me..i just feel that my past has totally made me into a different person now..not totally..but somewhere there you know..haiz..

how i wish things were like last time you know..no need to worry about so many things..can tell everything..haiz..i'm sorry..i didn't mean it to be this way..how i wish i can tell you straight out what i'm really feeling..but the problem is, i can't even understand myself..yet again, i reall i wish i could..

everything just sound and seems to be wrong nowadays..i dunno..i think i'm going mad..haiz..losing control of myself..why must you do this to me? why must you spoil my future indeed..haiz..oh well..

char's looking at me now..investigating every single word i'm typing..heez..

good...but i dun want to go to his club..i'm so lazy to travel you know..hehe..oh well.. =P

feel like eating something soupy now..to cool myself down..oh well..

till next time, when i'm feeling better..hehe..