when u felt tt something was amiss

all these while i tot tt u din noe..i mysell din noe wat to tell u..i was just scared..scared tt if i were to bring it up, i'd get told off or something..

but oh well, at least it's all out in the open now..

rmb the promise..that's all i'm asking for..

even 5mins of your time worth a lot to me..

just rmb, wateva it is, we'll go thru everything together..n we'll make it thru..

love u always..and haf always been..

it'll just get better aite? *muackz*

camwhoring day

i myself dunno wat we were trying to do..*giggles*

white choc dream & belgian choc anyone? =)

super oblivious to my stare..she's just caught up with the worldly possessions..*shakes head*

eyes so dreary..*giggles*

couldn't post any more photos..laggy..grr..freaking annoying..

it's your day today..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUS DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

work politics..suddenly so many of them wen i went back to work today..the new staff, kecoh ah..she has issues with auntie angie..oh well..guess i learn how to handle these kind of things..just dun say anything, keep my mouth shut, and just do my work and be happy..hahakz..end of story..tak yah nak susah2 jaga tepi kain org smua nie..cuma menyusahkan diri sendiri je..betul tak syg? khekhekhe..

people say wen there's many, many ants at your hse, it's good..rezeki byk..but if it's just too much, den how? ick..

i feel like eating something that i haven't ate for a super long time..tulang..from beach rd..smlm, got a fam who ate at the coffeeshop behind..they brought their own loaf of bread and a box of tissues! terkekek seh kat situ..haahaa..

perhaps perhaps perhaps

i wish..i wish for so many things..and i tink half the things that i'm wishing for are things that i shud not even be wishing for..get wat i'm saying?

met my pri sch fren in campus just now..oh gosh, she looked super diff from the time i rmb her..and to tink that she act recognized me but i din recognize her..n i tot she was gg to tegur the wrong person wen she stopped in front of me..muahaha..

"chicken cannot eat already"..tt's how bad singlish sounds..geez..
oh, and portugal is the most beautiful place on earth and portugese is the most beautiful language on earth..or so she(my lang lecturer) said..i wonder..

bought my thai writing book just now..sanah says it looks like those kind of books that we all used to haf wen we were in kindergarten..learning how to write all over again..heehee..n she say go get a jotter book..can u imagine? hahakz..but if it turns out to be exciting, great..if not, wat to do..a classroom filled with idiots trying to pronounce o with a smile..hahakz..

it's my darling's bday tml..how exciting..khekhekhe..

so far so good

went for the MSS welcome tea just now..okie ah..but there were only 4 freshmen who turned up..it was so wierd..but it turned out to be okie..we played games, had food and talked a lot...learn a lot thru the seniors..it was quite interesting..not bad..if only i had gone for the MS nya welcome tea..then i wud haf known more people..then my life in uni will be a lil beta wit more frenz arnd..oh well..

then reach home so late..then later got sch at eight tml..haish~

bringing my lappy to sch tml...haf to do the tutorial balloting tml..

how dumb can i be...?!

supposed to go for the NUSMS welcome tea today..hey, i act went..took the bus to sch and wat not, n i reached way early, like arnd 4.15pm..then, i decided to hang arnd at the CO-OP..and then, i just felt like not gg at all..maybe coz
1) i suddenly felt lazy
2) takde member to go with
3) felt kind intimidated (dunno how tt's possible)
so, it felt like i went to sch for nothing! geez..

and then, went to meet j and haikal at PS..we went to chill at esplanade again, this time, savouring the moment of enjoying Black Beauty..spending time with them is just so funnylah..haikal makes me laugh my heart out! he's a super good happy pill..the things that he does..and then, in the train, he kept using all sorts of funny accents and pretending to be talking to Mus..hahakz..super funny..i can imagine a real conversation taking place between the both of them..muahaha..it wud be hilarious!

niwae, i'd definitely go for the malay studies soc welcome tea..haf to go for at least one of them..

i'm sick...again..

made a friend during history lect just now..she's nice..n the 2nd part of the history lect was funny..the lecturer was funny..he said historians make the best date..hahakz..and the things that he said, it was super funny..there were over 430 students in the lt..and initially, it was so silent, i found it so hard to even cough..geez..

and then i woke up in the morning today and cant seem to stop coughing and snuffling..anf now i feel feverish once again..bluek..

chill

snowy white was fantastic ah! dun even noe how to describe it..for those who simply love white chocolate, i suggest that u guys shud really try it..u wun regret..money back guarantee..hehe..wer to find it? Polar Puffs @ Citylink Mall for only $2.80..

me, j and haikal went to esplanade after buying the snowy white and i practically became high and went weeeeeeee after eating tt..next mission, to try the dark choc one..yummy! darling, must try k? i'll buy one for u next time..

went to meet up with J after sch..si haikal told her to meet at raffles place nya bk, si makcik tu ingatkan raffles city..kesian budak itu, jln kaki from raffles place to raffles city..wat a diff J..*giggles*

then while we were chilling @ esplanade, i was commenting abt haikal's cool laptop settings ah..and then, it just sounded like a crude comment ah..buat malu je..chep! i'd rather not tell the whole world wat i said..it's just too embarrassing..then haikal to do some magic yg tak menjadi with the doors at the underpass..super hilarious..

niwae, first lecture of my academic year..not bad ah..the diff between Singaporean film and Singapore film? i've still yet to understand..hehe..hopefully i'll pull it thru..no MS lecture tml, next week then start..so sch starts at 4pm tml..can u imagine? hahakz..n it's my history module..i've yet to buy my history textbook..and the co-op was swarmed with people just now..it was so diff to even walk thru..haish~

affected..

my cowey's sick! went to the doc and the doc said he's either down with food poisoning or gastric flu..tt's wat i told him too..not bad ah..i can bcum doctor also..khekhekhe..niwae, he said if it's food poisoning, cud be the telur penyu tt his sis brought home from Kelantan..if it's gastric flu, then it must haf been me..e'eh, sedapnya mulut cik abg nie..sejak biler seh org down with gastric flu..tersalah mkn lah agaknya tu..but so poor thing lah..i hope he'll recover soon..so worried see him like tt n i can't do anything abt it..

1 down..5 more to go..

havent prepare my stuffs for sch yet! yikes! i'm super freaked out rite now..aaargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fireworks..again..

i went to watch fireworks again tonight..with my larling, sanah, char, lene, ian, aaron, jerry n ed..even tho ed and jerry din stay to watch but instead they went to eat at Carl's Jr, at least i got to see my frenz whom i havent seen for ages i tell u..and they were like so surprised and shocked wen i told them i'm taking Thai..they are not the only ones..i'm surprised myself..and feeling kinda scared..

just took a look at the stuffs that i need to print, the books tt i need to get, it's really tough work i tell u..haish~

went for rag today..oklah..not bad, quite exciting..but some were really dull and boring..hmm..

niwae, guess wat? sanah n i went to watch Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna @ J8 today..hehe..it was so exciting..not bad the story..a lot of funny parts..but it's definitely not your typical, conservative and conventional type of hindi film..wic is kinda interesting coz it makes it look real..yeah..so shy to cry in the theatre, even tho there were parts that were very moving and touching..but there were so many people..can't seem to bring myself to cry..malu seh..and i tot we wud be the only malays..but i guess not..it's definitely a diff experience..imagine u sitting down in the theatre for abt 3hrs15mins..it surely aches..hehe..

the fireworks just now was ok..it was nice act..ain't sure whether the other day's fireworks was nicer..but i guess, it was just as nice..yup yup..

n it's nice being able to be comfortable and be myself with him even when i'm with my frenz..i love you so much syg! *muackz*

not in the best of mood

if only i hadn't fall sick..cud haf gone to watch movie with sanah as planned..geez..

just felt terrible wen i woke up in the morning..head throbbing, body's feeling hot and heaty..geez..cudn't even haf the strength to walk to the clinic..seems so near yet so far..went to the coffeeshop to haf breakfast with mummy..tamak, order sampai 4 keping roti..in the end mkn satu je..takde selera langsung..ate medicine after eating the bread..n iact fell asleep at the coffeeshop (so not glam)! woke up, smiled at my ma, n went back to sleep again..

i just ended up taking Thai for that one more module that i had to take this sem..can u imagine..it's definitely not gg to be an easy feat..if things go well, i can speak thai wen i go bangkok next time..coooool..hehe..but oh well, kinda scary also lah..haish~ wonder how the exams gg to be like..

miss my darling..he wants to take part in The Dance Floor, organised by Mediacorp..all the best larling..i'll always support u and will always be behind u..=)

makes u wonder.....................

went out with my larling today to catch The Fast & The Furious: Tokyo Drift..not really tt nice ah..only the action parts okie ah..no wonder bro farhan told me to just watch his DVD..dah tau abeh tak nak bilang seh..niwae, it was really nice being able to spend time with him..and then, it came to talking abt celebrating his bdae..he ask me go celebrate with his fam..but like so wierd gitu..coz i feel that i've been blacklisted in his mum's good books..then i told him ah, i feel that in general, most mothers feel that their son's gf is trying to steal their sons from them..tt's why they will gif the gf a hard time..dun u tink so?

btw, nor's grandma passed away today..makes me wonder wat happens if one of my close realtives passed away..shouldn't be thinking this way..but can't seem to help it....

i feel sick..down with a fever, 38.2..maybe i'm just love sick..muahaha..

planning to watch a hindi movie, Kabhi Alvidaa Naa Kehna, wit sanah tml..how exciting! khekehkhe..

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeee! it felt so funny gg back to work today..hehe..after not gg to work for so long..auntie chai hoon kept on saying "everybody here syg u, u noe.." it's like so funny ah..then the next time i work will be on sunday..then before i left just now, the way i say goodbye like i quitting dy..hahakz..funny ah..cannot stand it..kept on kacauing all the auntie and makcik there..the only person i dun dare kacau is my supervisor..hehe..like d-uh?!

niwae, i'm gg out with my larling tml! so excited..hehe..gg to watch 2fast2furious..finally get to watch a movie with him after a super looooooooooooong time..how exciting! weeeeeeeeeee!

i really hope that this time round, i get the modules tt i bid for..*praying hard*

cherish every moment

went for flag day today..it was super fun! met new people..got tips from a senior..and i truly enjoyed myself..but some people whom we approached were kinda unfriendly..sum din even bother to loor even smile..tak nak donate sudah ah..but no need to show such attitude rite..bingit seh..but niwae, my grpmates were fun! we went for lunch together and wat not..cool..
and then, my syg came down to jurong east..he act helped me out..khekhekhe..stood at a sheltered walkway..couldn't get 'customers' coz there were other bluezies that came along..spoil market betul..then he suggested coffeshops, which was like so wierd..and then, the fun part came..the both of us just ended up going from door-to-door..cool..the people were much friendlier than they were on the streets..now we noe guys, wen u doing flag daym dun even bother standing on the streets to ask..just go to any block, and try your luck..within 2hrs or so, i'm sure u'll be satisfied with the results...khekhekhe..

then i went home after tt..no one at home..syg called me up, n say "Syg, wanna go watch fireworks tonight?" i tell u, at that moment, i became so excited ah..curi2 seh kluar rumah..meeting him is just like a blessing..spending time with him again, being by his side, being close to him, just warms my heart n brightens up my life..n Syg, i'm glad tt u're feeling beta now..like i said, i'll do anything..anything to make u feel beta..coz as much as u need me, tt's how much i need you too..

i love u very much..i really do..

with the time spent apart before this, every moment spent with him, is being cherished so very much..even more than ever..wateva it is, we'll always go thru thick and thin together..n i mean it ya..

a day to remember...

so many things happened today..tt's why it's a day to remember..heez..

went for the freshmen inauguration(dunno how to spell) ceremony @ UCC..the brochure said it's from 10am-2pm..in the end it ended at 11am..wth..but niwae, so many pple wore until soooo formal..like really white top and black bottom..wierd..then i wear until quite casual ah..but i think it's okie..hehe..n then we had to take some kind of student's oath/pledge, wateva it's called.so funny..

n then finally, i got to see my sayang! soooooooooooooooo happy...neva felt so happy for a long time..and oh well, he told me wat he needed to tell me..at least i know the real reason and stuffs..but oh well..and i did tell him y it affected me so much..how frightened i was n wat not..haish~ but then..

then after tt we went to meet azza n zura..the later part was wat bothered me..i din feel very comfortable..i guess with the kind of people i was arnd with..i mean no harm ah..but just feel awkward and wat not..n just not in my comfort zone..

n then me n him just went off, to our romantic getaway..hehe..so diff to find a nice place to sit at the void deck..haiyoy..i really wanna see more of him..i miss him super duper much..but then..

i hope things will get beta now..

n then came the stupid bidding modules thingy..now, i haf to bid for other modules..coz there's no more space for soci, psyc n social work..n then i'll haf to end up taking stuffs that i'm not even interested in..damn! i hate this stupid thing! grr..

with so many things happening, definitely a day to rmb..n gg flag day tml..woohoo..=P

he planned to watch 2fast2furious on thurs..with khairy..cool..

so free this week..not gg for orientation prog coz din sign up..then now i so free..

hope tt i'll get to watch fireworks on wed..tt's if he's not gg with his fam lah..

me..again..

i shud publishing so many entries in one day..but i guess i'm just too lazy to write things down..

well, dun u eva wonder, how some people can be super lucky? take my bestie, for instance..geez, glad for her that she need not go thru the trouble of a second bidding..haish~ but me? dunno wat will happen also..at least she's got it secured..

told bro farhan abt it..n wat he said was like super funny lah..his comments always make me laugh..khekhekhekhe..

having mixed emotions rite now..as much as i know tt i haf other things to worry abt and wat not, i can't help but wonder wen's the next time i'll get a msg or a call from him..hate waiting..simply hate it..oh well..everytime my receives a msg, i so hope to see a "Sayang!!!!!" to begin the msg..but i guess i'm just raising my hopes..oh well..

suddenly, feeling downy2..

i wanna go EC to chill..it's been a long time since i went there to chill..i miss those times..really do..

better than usual

happy wedding anniversary to my parents! gosh..din noe tt they were married for 34yrs dy..geez, tt's super long lah..i'm totally amazed and wowed by the fact..heez..n happy birthday to rose too!!!!!! it's been a while since i last saw her too...heez...

it felt so nice getting to eat the $1 ice-cream..heez..those kind by the road..hehe..but like wat like tt lah..i had to go buy 3 ice-cream on my own..padahal, i only got two hands..had to runback and forth to the car like pompuan giler like tt..tsk tsk..

and my sisters din even like ask my parents out to celebrate..like wat like tt seh..n my dad was pinning some kind of hope that at least one of them wud do so..so kesian seh..like wat my dad said, "muka drg nak blanja..smua muka tahi hidung masin.." hehe..that's totally funny lah..hehe..

i wanna celebrate your birthday with you too, next week..but i dun even know how to get to you..i really i wish i could..wonder wat to get u for your birthday..hmmmm...*thinking hard*

topsy turvy mind

i tink i'm fine..i think i shud be fine..

haven't been in the best of moods nowadays..easily irritated with my mum..wic is definitely not a good thing rite..oh well...dunnolah..i guess too much is gg on tt's why i'm feeling this way..haish~

i dun tink i'm ready for uni life..

i need some comfort..comfort from the one i love..but i dunno wer he is now..seems to be so near yet so far..

my hair's gonna fall off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bid for 4 modules..but only got one..doomed..next round, we haf to compete with seniors, who are 'richer' than us freshies..God knows how high the bid will go..i'm so stressed rite now..having a terrible headache..and these are just lectures..haven't started balloting for tutorials rite..doomed..i'm so doomed..

n u dun even noe..haish~

feeling a lil bit beta..

guess who came down to my workplace just now? it was azza and zura..hehe..so nice of them..then the three of us, with san and nor just slacked outside my workplace till like 5+, almost 6..something tt i've neva eva done before! hehe..kinda wierd but oklah..and guess wat? it's the first time tt i act properly met zura..even tho we live in the same block but neva met each other before this..wierd huh? hehe..

it was nice spending time with them..esp after a long day's work..wished my larling was there too tho..

i enjoyed working now..my colleagues are fantastic..n my supervisor's nice with me now..she even bought for me a packet of nuts! hehe..

sch's starting soon..i've already bid for my modules..results tonight..i hope i can get wat i want..*praying hard*

n well, watching my niece nowadays just makes me happy!