frightened

haish~ frightened by sch..frightened by biding of modules..frightened by everything..

i hope that everything will turn out to be fine..he msged me just now..kinda glad..but hope to hear more from him..

i'm confused..

why must this happen?

'where'd you go..i miss u so..it's like it's been forever that you've been gone"

why must things turned out to be this way? it seems like you've cut me out of your life..i wonder how you're doing, whether you're ok, where you are..i understand if you've having problems..but why do this? if u tink that by not telling me anything, you wun make me worried, it's otherwise..u not telling me, me not hearing from u for soooooo long, makes me worried sick..

u said u'd neva hurt me..but..wateva it is, i just wanna let u know that wateva it is, i'm always here for you..willing to hear and help u out..being together means sharing each other's joys and sorrows..perhaps things are difficult on your side..but at least just let me know..nothing can make me feel better than at least getting at least a msg from u a day..that's all i'm asking for..

i'm starting sch soon and then things will be even harder..i just wanna see and hear from you after so long..it just kills me inside..and all i do everyday is just wait by the phone hoping that i'll see your name appearing on it..

i hope you're doing ok..and if you're reading this, just wanna tell u that i'm missing u so bloody much..

it's been a while..

it kinda suck working at a place wer most of the time everybody just speaks in hokkien or mandarin..and they think that sometimes u dun understand wat they're saying..it hurts..esp if you're the one being talked abt..i felt it really bad today..couldn't take it anymore..at least i haf the other makcik..i miss cik jah tho..haish~

so much has been gg on..there's something i wanna say but i dunno how to put it to words..coz i know that it's not wat i feel..but it's wat happened in the past that made me feel this way..wateva it is, i know that it wun happen to us..

things haf been so ________ (can't find a suitable word to use)..i hope that things will not continue to be this way..coz somehow, it just leaves me yearning for u everyday..so near yet so far..if u noe wat i mean..

6 mths and counting on..love u so much..

love now, always and forever..

sweeeeet...

when things go wrong.. (yeah rite!)

our little pinkies..that have our trademark..we're just meant to be together! heez..

why is it so hard to bite this thing?! geez..

doesn't it look like he's practically poking my nose with that satay stick? *yuck*

real love..

love him sooooooo much..thank you for everything..and i really mean it..

desperate...

i'm going to try getting a job at Polar's, Robinsons and Marks&Spencer..hopefully i can get at least one of those..insya'allah..trying hard to get a job..i'm super desperate to get one..still got a long way to go before school starts..haish~

i'm yearning for a hug!!!!!!! dunno why..oh well..

miss everybody..my homies..my darling..everyone lah..

the day spent at sentosa with my girls and my darling was super great lah! my gosh..had so much fun..but girls, i'm so sorry you guys have to wait for the photos yeah..like san said, the photos have to be imported from japan..muahaha..wat rubbish..hehe..well, i'm really glad that my girls and my darling can click very well..that's all i'm asking for..heez..=)

my couz got married yesterday..how sweet..and they came over to my house today..well, at least me and her husband can get along well..because if not, it'll be so wierd..coz me and her are like the bestest ever..but wat's bugging my mind now is that i always call him by his name but he's older than me..but if ikutkan pangkat, i'm older than him lah..but the thing is, me and my couz call each other by name only..so if i were to call him like Abang Zahri, like so wierd like tt..so i guess shud just stick to just name-calling lah eh..habis cerita..

my darling got a job dy..dunno how busy he'll be then..haish~ miss him so much..

take me and fly me to the moon...

omg..syg, i love you so much lah..having somebody who appreciates me for who i am n love as much as you do..gosh..i'm like so over the moon rite now..thankiew so much for everything..really appreciate it..

btw, people..i got into NUS!!! so happy..heez..how exciting..heez..

oh well..wat to do..

mount the kerb..immediate failure..damn it man..i only tried tt crank course the morning before my test..damn suay i tell you..then kena pula that crank course for my test..damn it..feel like cursing and swearing so badly..terrible me..haish~ dahlah tu, now melangok in front of the comp waiting for an available re-test date..grr..why? why? why?

but niwae, had such a fun time with my darling on saturday..sitting in the rain with an umbrella over our head..how romantic is tt? hehe..and i tink i saw luqman mf and the yck guy and their frenz..

most prob going to sentosa on tuesday..with the girls and my darling..ooh..hahakz..really hope that i can go..if not, i slaughter myself..i definitely need to let out steam man..haish~

missed me?

omg..one week without driving prac..instructor went for holiday for a week..by the time he comes back, 5 days later, it'll be my TP test..wth..hope that i'll pass tho..mixed feelings inside me..scared but at the same time excited..hehe..

i was like looking thru friendster just now..found out certain things that made me go whoa..hehe..but oh well..wateva lah eh..

was really nice to be able to share things with my second sister..she knows abt mus and wat not..it's really nice..mcm a load off my burden somehow..yup yup..

miss everybody! miss ma homies..miss my darling..haish~ i wonder how everybody's doing..

i think i'm staying at home membesarkan buntut je..well, that's wat my bro-in-law says..*giggles*

i hope my application to uni will be accepted..my parents haf been telling people "insya'allah nanti yan masuk uni"..haiz~ i hope so too yeah..dengan berkat doa drg..

...

got the chance to teach..n guess wat? i kinda miss my students..aww..=( they were so nice..except for my sec1..ajar drg mcm nak rak..it felt like as if i was in a room filled with monkeys or something because majotiry of them were boys! goodness..but my other students were nice..real nice..=)

apart from that, my life feels all the same..nothing much..except that there's always my sweet darling by my side..=)

miss everyone..haish~

confused..

well well well..the truth is out..my results i mean..wat can i say..oklah..maybe i was expecting a lil bit better..but alhamdulillah..grateful alreayd..as long as i can get a place in the uni tt i'm fine with it..now the problem is, i dunno wat i wanna do..oh well..

been to like practical lesson number 4 or 5..okie great..went out to the main road today..cool..i hope that i'll be able to pass the test at my first try..just imagine gg to sch in a car..how cool is that..woohoo!

oh god..something tat i never imagined could happen to me happened like yesterday..i tot it only happened to me sister..geez..but wateva it is, no way man..coz i haf my dearie dy..or like wat my second sister says, i haf my muttaqin..wat the heck..

seriously, i think i'm gg to get myself a job..but maybe, after my TP test..easier..if not, haish..

bummer

a level results coming out this wednesday..i'm totally screwed..but my ma dun think abt me..just let the results come..hmm..wat the heck..

went for my first prac lesson today..honestly, i was freaked out lah..first time the instructor brought me to the road dy..freaky..but oklah..not bad..

me and him..doing very well..=)

mendak beb..

the boredom is like soooooo making me rot to death..bleaghx..

basic theory test tml..my heart's beating like mad!

my darling is like sooooo sweet..but the thing is, up till now, still ain't sure abt the real status and wat not..but it's ok..hehe..he's soooo sweet to me..he's the sweetest thing that ever happened to me! lurve u soooooo the very much...

haish~

miss all ma peeps..long time neva see all of u..hope that you guys are doing fine yeah..

such a bum!

goodness gracious..all i've been doing now is bumming arnd..geez..wat a lazy bum i am..gg to bangkok soon! yippee!!!!

love ya darl..*muackz*

boring..nothing to do..hope tt i'll be able to take up the speech&drama class at anderson pri..

just enrolled for basic theory..quite scary..it's been a while since a last touch a book and study..otak karat beb..

happy new year!!!

it's 2006 dy..so fast..i think 2005 just whizzed past me or something..so many things happened in tt year..some worth remembering while some are best forgotten..

it was birthday yesterday!!!!! to all those people who wished me, thank you so much..and love each and everyone of u..and to those hu din, u guys owe me one..hahakz..jk..but it was the boringest birthday i've ever had..it just felt like any normal day..geez..can't believe it..

n my poor moo-moo has a swollen eye..kesiannya dia..

miss all my frenz..

haf to get a job..before i spend my days expanding my ass..*giggles*

and to that one person, good luck yeah..=) i'll be rooting for you!

i'm so dying of boredom!!!

it's been only 4 days at home..and i tink i'm gg to die..

must go find a job soon..haf to find cash to pay my hp bills..

but in the midst of the boredom, i'll always haf my darling moo-moo to keep me accompany..

my life seems brighter now with his presence..

miss ya moo-moo..

prom nite 05122005

and finally! NYJC Prom Queen 2005..our lovely shannon! yippee!

the three princesses..

our trademark post..

exotic looking married couple! hehe..tt's wat ms kwok said..hehe..

me & alfian

the guys sitting at my table..

me and pretty lil fizza..=)

me and fazli..charming..hehe..

me n pretty fyda..=)

ms kwok looks just like one of us..

the picture is missing one person..sanah..

a more completed 04a2..somewhere amongst there's a beauty queen in the making..hehe..

tt's like half of 04a2..hehe..everybody looked pretty and handsome and charming..aww..but jerry, wat's up with the blue hair? hehe..

great

the immersion programme was superb..saw the pictures rite? it was really an irreplaceable experience..my host and her family were great..will never forget their warm hospitality and kindness and sincerity..so great..words can only say so much..but seriously, i just didn't feel like going back to singapore! if not for my friends back here, i dun tink i wud be home..hehe..

immersion programme part 2

my classmates in SMAN71..in contact with some of them..frenz foreva peeps..

superb..splendid view at puncak..
breathtaking

super beautiful scenery at telaga warna..mus said it looks like bukit gombak!

riding the delman

i'm back!!!!

sweet..in the bus on the way to ancol..

before going to ancol on our first day..

icha, ayu, me and fazli

look at the excited faces..hehe..

sempat berphoto..

goodbye singapore..hello jakarta..

new friends made..lucky(achil), tari, ayu, fara

while waiting to be fetched after our first day of activities...

he did that coz he closed his eyes for the photo we took before this..funny samir!

at the airport at jakarta, saying our last goodbyes

beautiful scenery at puncak

tak dapat naik planenya, amek gambar pun jadi lah

in the tronton on the way to bogor for the leadership camp

tt's me, zu and samir outside their 'science centre'

there's more photos than this..next entry yeah people..hehe